bad day

sigh...i feel extremely sad today. its been so long since i felt this way. my results came out today, its like shit man i got one HD, two C and one X. i failed one paper. arghh....this sucks!! it hit me really bad this time, cos i have not failed for a long time and its my first time failing in my UNI life. sobs.
woke up extremely early to go college to see if i could appeal or maybe take a supplementary paper, after minutes i was jus again disappointed because if there's a supplementary paper for the subject, there is no way u can appeal! thus, im left with taking the paper again next wednesday!

this really hit me bad. again i know i maybe a stronger person because of this. but i really feel like crying, i feel like i have fall badly when i so want to jus be on the top. i don need HD's or D's to make my day. i jus dont want to fail. i jus don want to be sad anymore. sigh...

i know so well that its no point of me feeling like that, but to actually get up n do something about it. but i cant, it pulls me down each time i try to get up n do something about it. im scared. im scared if i were to get up once again, ill fail again!! i wont be able to take it. im damn scared!