this song so describe my mood now

{verse 1}
Alone in this house again tonight
I've got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

{chorus}
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

{verse 2}
Would it help if i turned the sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

{chorus}
Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

{chorus}
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with this pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

ive been facing a lot of problems lately. i feel horrible about what i have done the past, i learn from it and i wanna change. but its just really really tough. i have no idea how to do it sometimes, i kinda lost track of things. although the recent issues are about my past, i still feel horrible. i have never been really happy since the day i know what have i done in the past and also admitting my mistakes, because i am still trying change.

there are a number things that is making me unhappy. but i cannot admit it because it brings out the best in me. i always think that i am not allowed or i should not be happy because i dun deserve it. what ive done in the past, this is my karma.

recently, ive been avoiding my problems. i am just not ready to face it or even talk about it or even do anything about it. i am just not ready and ive been turning to my alcohols to avoid facing my problem. i have no one i can really talk to. jesh isn't here and he is the only one i can really talk to. i hope he will be back soon.

results

my results are out. weeeeeeeeeeee!!! i feel so relief. my worries is all gone now. =)

Unit Grade Mark Unit Title
009754 5 50 Finance (International) 302
010855 6 68 Public Relations (Principles) 102
003822 6 64 Sales Management 230
003900 5 55 Strategic Marketing 310

the above is my results for semester 1, 2007. i pass everything. i am damn happy. im closer to my dreams, closer to having what i want in life. i am graduating end of this year. i will and i must! hehe