geee...

its may already. half a year had passed. almost! soon it'll be 2008.
2008 comes.. i have a pretty good plan for it. hopefully, by then i graduated n started working. where? as what? i honestly have no idea.
i cant wait for 2008 to come, but somehow im afraid what lies ahead. i hope whatever i have planned for would actually happened.
i dont know if what i have planned for is right or wrong or even if it gonna be good for me n my family. but on the other hand, i think i really need it and that i really want it. i feel that by doing what i planned to do, i would find myself. i would know what i am capable of and not. despite that, i am afraid that i would fail finding myself n would be very disappoint with myself.
i feel lost. i raelly do. what i dream i would become n who am i now? it is very different. i dunno if i really can be the person i want to be. who i am right now, is really someone i dun wanna be. its not that i don't like everything about myself right now, but certain stuff. but no one is perfect, i dunno if the person i wanna be is too perfect for me to be. i really dunno. im just so so lost.
im trying right now to just be comfortable with everything. n it feels so hard.