ive been facing a lot of problems lately. i feel horrible about what i have done the past, i learn from it and i wanna change. but its just really really tough. i have no idea how to do it sometimes, i kinda lost track of things. although the recent issues are about my past, i still feel horrible. i have never been really happy since the day i know what have i done in the past and also admitting my mistakes, because i am still trying change.
there are a number things that is making me unhappy. but i cannot admit it because it brings out the best in me. i always think that i am not allowed or i should not be happy because i dun deserve it. what ive done in the past, this is my karma.
recently, ive been avoiding my problems. i am just not ready to face it or even talk about it or even do anything about it. i am just not ready and ive been turning to my alcohols to avoid facing my problem. i have no one i can really talk to. jesh isn't here and he is the only one i can really talk to. i hope he will be back soon.
.lim. leeling.
19aug1986. studying. confused. demanding. selfish. lazy. lifeless. determine. loving. caring. talks too much. insensitive.
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Alcohol, we shall :) Hope things are okay... I'm here if you need to talk okay... take care yea...
-xoxo- (astrid)
By having the thought of changing, by realizing that you have made a mistake - that is always a start. It shows that you are humane, that you reflect. It is not easy to face your mistakes, but neither will it do you any good by avoiding it. So why not take a further step and make amendments instead of hiding in the shadows of your past? It is all part of learning. Everything you do is part of learning. All you have to do is know when is the right time to learn and from whom to learn from. Hope this helps :)
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